A Difficult Decision

I had to step down as a bridesmaid in my brothers wedding. I didn't post about the "dress drama" as I call it, because for the last several days anytime I thought about it, I got all stressed out. Even the girls on board noticed I was not myself. I had been sooo upset about it; I felt like I was letting them down.

Anyway - turns out the dress that Camille had picked doesn't go big enough for me .. They have one that will fit me in the top, but not the waist and hips. Of course I could have had panels put in; as well as trying to have it made from a dress maker. But unfortunately, all of the options required me to be home. Not away for months at a time. My Mom had spoken with one seamstress who said I would need to have fittings regularly - at least monthly, but more like every other week. Obviously, that isn't an option being out here.

Sooo, I had to make the decision. I did think about making this my final contract .. I hated the thought of it though. I love my job and wouldn't trade it for anything. As much as I love my brother and Camille, I couldn't very well quit my job over a dress. They reassured me that as long as I was there, that was all that mattered. And that they will have me participate in the day another way, probably a reading. ( I don't know if they have one for me, or if I should find one - so I am looking anyway )

As much as I don't like it, I do feel better; a LOT better now that it has been decided and is done with for now. I will be able to pick a dress that fits me well and I already have some ideas (amazing what window shopping can do!)